Posts Tagged ‘Journal’

 

Dear Merciful God,

I desire to burn

You are a consuming fire

It’s for You I yearn

 

An earthly world full of chaos

Without You I know I’m doomed

Shield me with Your love

I desire to not be consumed

 

I come to You in Jesus’s name

As I come holding His hand

If I can but burn forever

In your presence I could stand

 

Nothing on earth matters

If my soul I throw away

So make me fireproof this day

So with You, I can always stay

 

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WOW!

Friday was absolutely amazing! I don’t even know how or where to begin. WOW.

Well I guess the easiest thing to do is to start at the beginning. How did my day really start off? hmmmm! I’m just going to give the short version of the story in the order it happened.

  1. Met up with some other Bajans here in the cold and we had an awesome video shoot (and impromptu photo shoot). We got some amazing footage (both Brook and myself). All that footage… I spent all of Saturday night into the wee hours of this morning chopping and cutting to find the stuff I would be using to edit for the video. And YES!! The video is done… for the most part…. just now for the voice over to be done. And the photos I took were beautiful. The model is both stunning and literally a natural. This is legit the 2nd time I’m shooting her ever and both times like a week apart. Both times it was so exciting to shoot her and furthermore… I think I am still excited now thinking about it.
  2. THIS WAS THE AMAZING PART. (Well the icing on the cake). And since I said cake… I’ll give it away… there will be wedding cake to come after today. Not for me per se but somebody’s going to get some wedding cake lol lol lol. So as fate would have it… we (the 5 of us) were shooting on this bridge connecting the two buildings in Eaton Centre when this guy came with some huge bags with letter balloons. So he proceeded to take out the letters. Did I say he was wearing a suit? Well he was and had a backpack on. So as he took them out… I realized the letters were spelling “MARRY ME?♥” We asked if he wanted help but he said he had it covered. Unfortunately the wind blowing through the tunnel had a different plan which made all the balloons blow on a side as opposed to stand up straight. So he eventually accepted our help. So we all came up with the plan for us to hold the balloons for him and we were there working through how it would happen. All this time we were watching the time because he had told us her friends were bringing her at 4:30pm. So we are doing all this under pressure. Why were we under pressure too? GOOD QUESTION! We hadn’t even known this man existed moments before but it was the idea this man was going to propose to her girlfriend yanked on all our heartstrings. I’m not going to lie! My heart was in a state of confusion… it forgot how to beat properly. I was to hold a balloon too but I decided I wanted to record this. This doesn’t happen too often if at all. I’ve never witnessed a proposal in my life furthermore a random stranger who we assisted with setting up for. Mind you… I only by chance had my Gopro on me as I almost left it home that day because I was going to be shooting with my Canon and said I wouldn’t need the gopro. But I grabbed it anyways because for some reason I had a feeling I needed to have it that day. Well things had gotten crazy. VERY CRAZY! As the time was counting down…. it got intense. By this time… many other persons were gathered to witness the event as well. I remember when he got the message and he shouted out “30 seconds!” That was the moment everything got REALLLLLL!

I remember when she walked in the tunnel and he stepped out and she stopped stunned…. I won’t forget what she said first… “IS THIS YOU?”

And he just walked to her…. you know what? I have it all on video…. just watch and see… MARRY ME?- Unsuspected Strangers

 

He asked the simple question… “Marry me?”

And she simply… nodded as she laughed in excitement.

#Funfact: I start off these post with the title as just “Entry DDMMYY- ” and then I add on the last part of it with last line of the post.

Good day,

So this morning I edited my last post because I got in trouble. Oh wait! Not trouble with the content but rather with my errors. My friend always complains that I write and there are grammatical errors in the posts. I know this to be true.

#SidenoteI was just thinking to myself that maybe I could type this up in Word and do a word check after but then I looked up in this very window and I see there is this button there called “Proofread Writing”. LOL LOL. Whoops! Well I’ll definitely use that now.

That sidenote… as it just happened… literally made my whole explanation void. That being said… the only thing left to say… I clearly was just lazy.

 

I actually wanted to post a poem yesterday. Well to be more accurate… write, and then post one yesterday. So guess what? Today is going to be a #DoublePost.

 

Today we are going to talk about me. This is going to be fun.

#Sidenote: We often say that talking to ourselves is a sign that we may be going mad or already there. LOL But here’s a joke… when I write these posts… I’m legit sitting here talking to myself and having a full-blown conversation. And guess what? I love it. I’m good company! Great company!

Who Am I? If only we could get paid for every time we think this or someone asks us who we are… we’d all be RICH! lol

When I ask myself that question though… it’s far more than asking about my character. I want to know the value of said character. I ask it to determine MY value. What is my worth? How much is my time worth? How much is my love worth?

My time is nothing compared to eternity and my love is imperfect and nothing close to what God offers us.

So what is my worth?

Well… you are worth what ever you believe you are worth! It’s literally that simple.

I know that I am a son of The King. And I know that knowing and believing that makes me special and priceless.

By extension… every thing that I do, every moment that I have, every thing that I say, every word that I write… they are ALL PRICELESS. All because I believe it to be so. Who can tell me differently? If you can tell me differently… good for you! Doesn’t change what I believe.

So…

What do you believe?

What are you worth?

 

I started this new year at -30… degrees celsius. What a way to start eh? The great thing is… ‘it’s only up from here’… I hope lol.

Well this isn’t a ‘new year, new me, new page, new chapter post’. It’s more a ‘I haven’t posted in ages and what better day to restart than on the 1st post’.

What I will do is take a look back and comment on something that totally shook me… and continues to puzzle me.

Racism! Why is this still a thing? Like really? Are we still clueless to the fact that people are different? Why would you cross the road to avoid passing me on the street because my skin has more melanin in it than yours? Why would you choose to stand on a bus when there is an available seat on either side of me because I look different?  Are we still so ignorant? Really?

What really upsets me… is that… this behavior is NOT something we are born with. IT IS TAUGHT! Parents are the reason why kids grow up like this. Most of those parents are not even sure why they themselves behave that way… it’s just what their parents taught them. And the sad thing is… the cycle will continue with people not even thinking about why they are doing what they are doing but just doing it. Just yesterday, I sat on a bus and saw a young girl (probably about 10yo) sit in the seat next to me… with no care in the world… because it was a seat. Then her dad sees me and says to her “hey dear, let’s go sit in the back”. Ironic actually… I’m black and they are white… and he chose to go to the back of the bus.

I was just going to move on to something else but I just remembered something very funny on that same bus ride. This young boy (probably about 12yo)… he is also white and he comes in the bus and walks to the seat next to me…. and this boy has already committed to sitting down and is already on his descent down…. and looks up and sees me and moments before he touches the seat… he spins around and walks to the back of the bus. LOL! Like that was the funniest thing EVER! Truth is… normally when we commit to something even if we are interrupted mid action… it’s almost impossible to change the action until said action is completed. Sitting is one of those actions that once you have committed to and already on your way down… is extremely difficult to stop lol you would have to sit and then get up lol. But he managed to get it done.

The up-side to this… is that I feel special and I can feel comfortable sitting on the bus. But the reality is, it does bother me that people can still be so ignorant.

To be fair though… it is NOT everyone. People do sit next to me. What I find though… those are the young adults who are at the stage in their lives that they evaluate things for themselves and challenge the ideas and views they parents have taught them that may not quite add up for them… or they were fortunate to have not grown up in a family that does not accept differences.

The good thing too is that at the university level… persons are allowed to mix in an environment that lends itself to intellectual reasoning. A lot of interracial relationships come out of university. And that is great. It’s just a shame that so many start off with that influence from their ignorant parents. And when I say ‘ignorant’, I am not saying that they are stupid. I am saying that they are lacking knowledge and awareness.

Well anyways… I think I’ve said enough for now. I just wish persons would accept each other’s differences. It is okay to be difference but it’s not okay or cool to be ignorant. Not knowing in this age where information is so readily accessible is definitely NOT cool. Think! Try to understand! What these people do… is silly… but guess what? It hurts.

Thank God that I know my worth. I am happy and proud to be who I am. I am not ashamed to be different!

I am black.

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WHOAAAAA! It is just shy of 20 weeks since I last posted. WOW.

Where has the time gone? wow.

Well it’s just after 1am and I decided it was time I came back to my blog and say something. I honestly believe I need to make a decision to come and blog on some interval. Maybe once a week? That’s realistic right? hmmm… Yes! I’ll go with that. At least ONCE a week.

It’s really cool when you see the things you learn in class come to life in real life. I understand that one never stops learning and even though I know this, I’m often times still amazed when something new pops up for something old. It happens with the people I deal with daily and it happens with the things I hear. Thing is, I should really really have this concrete in my mind. As a photographer I know 2 photographers can take a photo of the same subject and both producing TOTALLY different photos.

Females are the most interesting. I know I don’t understand them but what I keep finding out is that the small amount of what I don’t understand is only a small piece of all there is to not understand about females. LOL. It’s actually quite funny. Females have this way of making anything complex. There’s the human factor and then there is the female factor. LOL. The human factor is a variable in life’s equations (sorry for the analogy- Physics major) that varies due to many things, namely; time, setting, location, age, upbringing, character… etc. The female factor…. well….. let’s just say….. it’s far more complicated because feelings and emotions weigh heavily in the mix. There’s sooooo much more for me to not understand about females and I’ll just sit back and enjoy the ride.

I was just typing something there for the last 20 mins and I just backspaced because as I was rambling…. I lost my thought and then I realized there was no point to it anymore. LOL how did I get back here? This is another analogy to what I was just writing an analogy about LOL arguing with females…. after it all is over…. there was no point to it. It’s just a lot of wasted time.

I honestly wouldn’t mind arguments if there was going to be a constructive end, even if one side is not brought to the other, at least let there be an understanding. Arguing with someone who is not interested in understanding your point of view or what you are saying… WASTE OF TIME. And I’m not all females are like this. Would never say that. But I’ve come across quite a few who are.

Anyways…. I am tired now. Was studying earlier and I think I should be turning in.

So until…. next week? maybe? yes!

Ohhhhhhhh….. I just remembered…. I have been following the news around President Trump….. WHAT IS HAPPENING? IS THIS REAL?

WHAT A TIME TO BE LIVING! I never imagined seeing the day the President of the United States of America would do half the CRAZY things he has done.

Til next time.

Hey…

So I haven’t posted anything for a while now. I don’t want to take credit for that but I will. Procrastination ain’t ever cute eh. 

So what’s new? Wellllllll…. I did alot of thinking yesterday and I have a business idea. Like no joke. I have to put it in writing and give it a deadline… if not it’ll just be a dream. I dream enough at night and I’m not getting any younger. So I have to go after these things now that I am still here and able. I can’t share the idea with you guys now… for obvious reasons lol lol. But stay tuned.

Recently I’ve been thinking about family and kids a lot. Not sure why. But I ready to have my family… a beautiful wife and about 3 kids. I love kids and they are so amazing. I used to think that the world is in such a state and it doesn’t make sense bringing kids into it… But hey…. if God will have it for me to have a family and kids… He’ll give me all that I need to provide and ensure they get all they require and equip me to be able to protect them. Not physically but ye. Well not necessarily physical.

I’m a photographer and I’ll be soooooo sorry for those kids…. kids are the best subjects to shoot. Babies are amazing and they don’t have a clue what’s happening lol lol… Well at least I don’t think they know lol. I love kids. I really do. 

And my wife to be… somewhere out there… I know you will be beautiful and amazing. You’ll have to put up with me and the camera too. I’m sorry. And we have some traveling to do.

I’d love to do a Eurotrip for my 30th or for my honeymoon… although I could do a Caribbean or Canadian honeymoon. Who knows. 

I have a lot of amazing people in my life that some times I think that they are far better to me than I could ever be to them. I’m going to be better. Not for you but for me… and therefore being better for everyone. Hope that makes sense.

Well anyways… I just rambled there… lunch is over so that’s enough from me for now.

Likle mo. 
PS. That’s just a random photo lol lol I’d love to be at the beach now.

Entry- May 19th, 2017

Posted: May 19, 2017 in Journal, Life Stories
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Hey again.

Well I kept procrastinating therefore I didn’t get back to writing for a few days. Well now I’m stuck here in this line… waiting… so nothing to do but think… and it just hit me… I have time to write too.

Where to start? Soooo much has happened since my last post. *scratches head* when was my last post? *goes to check*… aha! May 7th. 

Well as it turns out… I’ve been through quite a bit of emotions recently. The thought of going home. The thought of leaving. The thought of you. The thought of me. Just a lot of thinking. 

Have you ever felt like a crayon? Like the brightest colour or rather your favourite colour? Where you get to colour the world how you want. Well I have felt like that! But while feeling this way… and feeling awesome that you would use me to colour your world…. then it hit me! I am just one crayon in the box. That thought knocked me out to imagine that not only I can be made to feel this special. Womp. 

Well that thought soon passed. It is funny how all we need is a little time. Time is such an amazing thing. We get older. We learn stuff. We live a little more. I’m getting older and the experiences here in Jamaica aren’t even done yet and it’s days before I leave. 

I like when I write. I realize when I read over, after posting, that I pretty much just rambled lol. 

When you think of a sponge patty… what do you think of? Hmm… I think of something soft, yummy, meaty. Does that even make sense? It should make sense to you. 

Well I’m hungry… I wanna travel this summer… I’m seriously considering hopping over to my neighbour for a visit as I’ll definitely love to see you. But who knows. I’m not sure yet lol lol always just need an excuse to travel. But I don’t want to be shot. If I go there I’ll have to be the deputy cause maybe he won’t shoot me then lol. Look I tried to make a funny.

Well later now.